contradiction
Sometimes I get impatient doing something that I love.
I am learning to draw, and I love to draw, and sometimes when I should be doing something else, I draw because I feel like I just “need” to do a little drawing. The more I draw, the more I feel comfortable doing it (i.e., getting “better” at it), and I know that it helps my painting so there is a great feedback loop going on here.
However.
The feedback is often delayed. And sometimes I don’t want delay, I want instant. I feel that I cannot wait a month for the useful revelation. I want the drawing to be beautiful RIGHT NOW. Ahahaha! Even though I need to add more shadows and put her hands beside her neck, I feel impatient.
So, what is the lesson here?
It is an opportunity to practice patience.
Or, perhaps the lesson is that sometimes it is good to take a break. Even from something I love doing. This seems like a contradiction to me.